Stars at Night Are Big & Bright

We moved here ten years ago June 1st. Ten years ago, really? It's so hard to believe. Not too much has changed except the kids are bigger, Big D's hair is grayer, and I'm thinner (baby weight, no matter that the baby is almost 7mths old!).

It was the scariest thing I had ever done, the decision to move. We moved away from a lot of family, friends, hairdressers, dentists, doctors, grocery stores, jobs to the land of the unknown. Yep, that's right. We made the decision to move here without ever having visited.

As long as I had known Big D, he was always adament about wanting to leave Memphis. When Lamb was 4, I told him it was Do or Die. Once she started school, I was not moving her. We told my mom and she said if we'd move to Houston, she knew she could get a transfer. She was not going to live away from her grandbabies. Houston was not a place I thought of, but sure? Why not?

Big D put in for a transfer as did my mom. She got hers first so in February, she & my brother moved here. In April, Big D still hadn't heard about his transfer. Mom asked that the kids & I go ahead & move here. So that's what we did.

Big D drove the 10hrs every other weekend to see us. Then Lamb asked him why he didn't love us anymore since he was never around. That did it. He told us that we were moving back up with him. This was May. And that's when his transfer finally went through. The day after Lamb's 4th birthday, we said goodbye to our family and our town.

Regrets? No, not really. There are times when I wonder what could have been, especially with my family. But there is no denying that Big D is happier. The kids are getting so many wonderful opportunities. And while we no longer have our large family circle, we do have some wonderful friends that help ease the pain of missing them.

I still haven't found a replacement for my Pancho's Cheese Dip & Purple Cows. Luckily, I have found some pretty close 2nds for my dad's chicken wings & pork bbq.

Even though, next year, I will have lived in Houston longer than anywhere else, including Pine Bluff & Memphis, it still doesn't feel like "home" to me. I wonder why that is?